Showing posts from May, 2022

Childlike Faith

 I want to be like Ketchina.  While chaos fills the house and her sisters are pitching fits and annoying each other and crying for no real reason and some are taking a bath and some are brushing teeth and Mommy Ellie is raising her voice for just a little bit of order and peace in the house and the nanny is running around looking for toothbrushes and towels and it’s loud and chaotic and hectic and messy and I’m frustrated and tired and bossy… And then there’s Ketchina.  Sitting peacefully on the bench singing her hymnal songs.  Not paying attention to the wreck around her.  Not paying attention to the mess around her.  Not paying attention to the chaos around her.  Just peacefully singing songs to Jesus while awaiting her turn to take a bath.  I wanna be like Ketchina.  Turn off the worldly news and the social media and the bad mom judgments and the security warnings and the chaos and stress in life. I want to block it all out, ignore it all, and just sing. Sing to Jesus.  Having speci

Mental Health

 I googled “what triggers a tension headache”  The response I read from Medline Plus was: “Tension headaches occur when neck and scalp muscles become tense or retract. The muscle contractions can be a response to stress, depression, head injury, or anxiety.” 3/4 I have. Guess it’s not sinuses.  I haven’t felt good the last few days. I thought maybe a virus. But then I also thought maybe just stress that indeed does weaken the immune system. I honestly think I’m out of touch with my emotions in a way. Trauma is one of the blames for that. I hear a gunshot or I read about the war going on in Port Au Prince and I have to quickly just put it to the back of my brain so I can get through the day. Mentally. But physically I think it does more damage than I want to admit. And with feeling like you always have to be strong, be alert, be organized, be ready, be prepared because the kids and the ministry and the emails and everything else is pulling you in every direction- eventually, the pain ca


 On April 29th 2016 Dachena joined our family.  She was 13 months old wearing newborn diapers. Purely a sack of bones. She didn’t even have the strength to sit up from the lying down position and didn’t know how to drink from a bottle.  Starvation almost took her life.  On May 1st 2016 Ciarha joined our family. She was 5 months old weighing 8lbs. She was so severely malnourished with Kwashiorkor that she had to be hospitalized for several weeks and even got a blood transfusion.  Malnutrition almost took her life.  (Unfortunately staying with the biological family isn’t always possible or safe for all children. Although that’s always the aim to support.) I say all this to say:  I am beyond grateful for everyone that donated towards our care package project.  But I can’t go on without recognizing everyone that also keeps La Limyè running year round. I wouldn’t have been able to feed the village if I didn’t have the funds first to feed my own children and keep a roof over their head. So w